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Posted: August 8, 2011 in backtalk, beauty

since we got mark wahlberg’s back muscles…


SIXTEEN DAYS SINCE I STOPPED SMOKING! I can totally keep this up. I can quit FOREVER. Thanks to this article at, I can tell you I am this much healthier already:


Within …

  • 20 minutes
Your blood pressure, pulse rate, and the temperature of your hands and feet will all return to normal.
  • 8 hours
Remaining nicotine in your bloodstream will have fallen to 6.25% of normal peak daily levels, a 93.25% reduction.
  • 12 hours
Your blood oxygen level will have increased to normal and carbon monoxide levels will have dropped to normal.
  • 24 hours
Anxieties peak in intensity and within two weeks should return to near pre-cessation levels.
  • 48 hours
Damaged nerve endings have started to regrow and your sense of smell and taste are beginning to return to normal. Cessation anger and irritability peaks.
  • 72 hours
Your entire body will test 100% nicotine-free and over 90% of all nicotine metabolites (the chemicals it breaks down into) will now have passed from your body via your urine.  Symptoms of chemical withdrawal have peaked in intensity, including restlessness. The number of cue induced crave episodes experienced during any quitting day will peak for the “average” ex-user. Lung bronchial tubes leading to air sacs (alveoli) are beginning to relax in recovering smokers. Breathing is becoming easier and the lungs functional abilities are starting to increase.
  • 5 – 8 days
The “average” ex-smoker will encounter an “average” of three cue induced crave episodes per day. Although we may not be “average” and although serious cessation time distortion can make minutes feel like hours, it is unlikely that any single episode will last longer than 3 minutes. Keep a clock handy and time them.
  • 10 days
10 days – The “average ex-user is down to encountering less than two crave episodes per day, each less than 3 minutes.
  • 10 days to 2 weeks
Recovery has likely progressed to the point where your addiction is no longer doing the talking. Blood circulation in our gums and teeth are now similar to that of a non-user.
  • 2 to 4 weeks
Cessation related anger, anxiety, difficulty concentrating, impatience, insomnia, restlessness and depression have ended. If still experiencing any of these symptoms get seen and evaluated by your physician.


And I have all this to look forward to:


  • 21 days
Brain acetylcholine receptor counts up-regulated in response to nicotine’s presence have now down-regulated and receptor binding has returned to levels seen in the brains of non-smokers.
  • 2 weeks to 3 months
Your heart attack risk has started to drop. Your lung function is beginning to improve.
  • 3 weeks to 3 months
Your circulation has substantially improved. Walking has become easier. Your chronic cough, if any, has likely disappeared.
  • 1 to 9 months
Any smoking related sinus congestion, fatigue or shortness of breath have decreased. Cilia have regrown in your lungs thereby increasing their ability to handle mucus, keep your lungs clean, and reduce infections. Your body’s overall energy has increased.
  • 1 year
Your excess risk of coronary heart disease, heart attack and stroke has dropped to less than half that of a smoker.
  • 5 to 15 years
Your risk of stroke has declined to that of a non-smoker.
  • 10 years
Your risk of being diagnosed with lung cancer is between 30% and 50% of that for a continuing smoker (2005 study). Risk of death from lung cancer has declined by almost half if you were an average smoker (one pack per day).  Your risk of pancreatic cancer has declined to that of a never-smoker (2011 study), while risk of cancer of the mouth, throat and esophagus has also declined.
  • 13 years
Your risk of smoking induced tooth loss has declined to that of a never-smoker (2006 study).
  • 15 years
Your risk of coronary heart disease is now that of a person who has never smoked.
  • 20 years
Female excess risk of death from all smoking related causes, including lung disease and cancer, has now reduced to that of a never-smoker (2008 study).

I am definitely winning. It has now been TEN DAYS since I last smoked. If you’d have asked me ten days ago whether or not I’d make it to this point, that’d be a big, definite NO. And here’s something funny that’s come along with it… my face. The oiliness. It’s retreating. Have cigarettes been the culprit all along, or is it that I’ve gone back to using witch hazel as a toner… or both? Either way, I’m not complaining.

Every morning when I come into work, I have to readjust my chair depending on which shoes I am wearing. Yesterday it was nice and high because I was wearing nearly-5″ heels but today I am wearing flats, so when I sat down this morning my feet barely touched the ground… like elation, but chair-induced.

Okay, so I’ve been using this AMAZING powder that I got in an AMAZING sample kit from MAKE UP FOR EVER – it’s their HD Microfinish Powder and I adore it. Come to think of it, maybe this powder is the reason my oiliness is retreating… whatever. It’s a mystery I’m not inclined to solve. This powder = dusted silk for your face. As devoted as I am to foundation, I could seriously put this on solo and be comfortable going out. Total 12/10. I also got a sample of their Smoky Lash mascara – I love the depth of the black, but I find the mascara really drying and irritating. It flakes all over my undereyes (which is a big no-no for me; my dark circles make it imperative that nothing else of a bruised coloration ends up there) and makes my eyelashes feel dry and clumpy, not soft and feathery. Because the color is so great, though, I’d give it a solid 6/10. The third MUFE product I received was an Aqua Eyes eyeliner pencil in Mat Black – penned as an eyeliner “formulated to glide on effortlessly and withstand the most extreme conditions, it stays put on eyelids without melting for precise application and intense color throughout the day,” I have to say they hit the nail on the head with that one. Remember that scene in SATC2 where SJP buys the kohl eyeliner at the shoe shop in the market in Abu Dhabi? And then she totally smokes out her eyes and almost makes you forget that she’s aged at all? Yeahhhh, it’s like that. Aiden will always make out with you if you wear this amazing, smudgy, darker-than-dark eyeliner.

Work is driving me absolutely batshit insane today and I’m working through lunch, so I leave you with this:

You’ve got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you’re not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice. [Steven D. Woodhull]

What saves a man is to take a step. Then another step. It is always the same step, but you have to take it. [Antoine de Saint-Exupery]

In a continuance of my weeklong Harry Potter mania, I played with green. Well, I wanted to play with green, didn’t have enough green, and then called in the help of a friend, who brought me an ENTIRE BAG OF GREEN! Oh, the joy. Colors used are [base: Urban Decay Green Goddess], [innercorner: L’Oreal 936 Blackened Smokes Silver], [outercorner: Lorac Jade], [outercorner: Urban Decay Zero], [eyeliner: MAC pencil in black/Urban Decay Zero], [eyeliner: Urban Decay Ink for Eyes in Loaded], [middleoflid: Urban Decay Graffiti], [waterline: MAC pencil in black/Urban Decay Zero], [mascara: Urban Decay Supercurl].

So here’s the beginning:

yes, i am as tired as i look! plain face.

And then we have to bring in the tools, so here’s my little brush basket of my favorite and most often used brushes, as well as the giant bag of GREEN, without which this post would not exist. The green smokey eye shown here took I think six brushes (or five? or six?), the products above, and five or ten minutes from beginning to end… but less than a minute to wash off completely so I could go to bed with the above clean face. 🙂 No makeup in bed! EVER! The day will never come that I am too tired or too drunk to wash my face before I go to sleep. Seriously. That’s so nast.

Okay, enough of that rant. Tools and green:



bag of green!

So, Urban Decay Green Goddess to start, and that’s just on the mobile lid. Then I had the hard task of sorting through all the beautiful shades at my disposal to see which would blend best and easiest (I wanted this to take ten minutes or less!). The ones listed above made the cut, and so it began. I decided I wanted it to be moderately wearable, which to me translates into black eyeliner contouring the eye (which for me means ROUND!) on both lash lines and the water line, and then outwardly radiating shades of green, darkening in gradients from silver to black. I did not use a blending brush because it’s my humble opinion that a ring finger gives a much lighter touch and a much more controllable blending experience than any brush. I’m a huge fan of finger blending. It’s good shit.

Urban Decay Green Goddess and MAC black eyeliner pencil, only on upper and lower waterlines

Adding Lorac Jade to the outside

So here we go, ten minutes later and all done! I could totally rock this to see HP… too bad I’m team Gryffindor…

big green eyes

i was watching

Posted: July 12, 2011 in backtalk, beauty, music is alive., talk, vids

this beautiful video, and I saw Adele with a cig, and it is testing my resolve.



Posted: May 16, 2011 in backtalk

screw that stupid top-of-hair braid. my dextrously retarded fingers can’t make that shit happen. i’m so pissed right now.


Posted: May 13, 2011 in backtalk

it was quick and pretty easy. turns out, you have to have reeeally long hair to do this. i mean, i think i have pretty long hair… but unless you start the braid above your ear, medium length and even just kind-of-long length will have a harder time with this. i had to pin the ends of the braid under the top center of my head, so you can see the braids as headbands on each side. i decided to do only one braid versus two. anyway, i think it’s pretty cute. i’m going to try it with straight hair and see how that changes things.


aaand straight. preferred. it’s a lot more grown.


i swear i am wearing a shirt.